Fanclub & IU collab on this amazing night of heady art pop and more. Just $5! Details here.
1FEST (aka One Fest) returns to Ithaca this year, now Friday night and all-day Saturday, featuring two stages of grind, hardcore, & noise, including Wormrot (Singapore), Die Choking, Disparo! (Australia), Escuela, Ascend/Descend, Death Vacation, Ides, Peter J Woods, Climax Denial, Plagues, No Heat and more.
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Good morning Ithaca! We’re close – so close – to meeting our $2000 goal for our February Fundraiser.
Every bit helps and if you don’t have dollars to share — text, post, share and let the world know your story and what Ithaca Underground means to you!
Benjamin Torrey, 26, sits in a rain-soaked chair under an umbrella in the backyard of The Westy. He’s wearing a black Pinkwash shirt and grey cut-offs. He’d wanted to go to a bar since he works from home and so “I’m not stuttering and talking about self-harm in front of college students eating bagels or whatever.” His steel blue eyes survey the area from behind his squared brown glasses. He asks if it’s ok if he smokes before pulling out a lighter wrapped in duct tape and a box of Natural American Spirits.
The night before, Torrey had been in Trumansburg shooting a music video for a friend who goes by the stage name Izzy True. Torrey had wanted to make music videos since transferring from Tompkins Community College to Ithaca College’s cinema and photography program. It’s been two years since he graduated and he’s been busy doing far more than just making videos for friends. Torrey is a videographer at the Ithaca Voice and a veteran volunteer at Ithaca Underground, a local non-for-profit organization and music community – shooting and editing video, creating art for posters and merchandise, and helping train new volunteers. He also performs under the name Benjaminto and puts together house shows with his roommate Krystal Cannon at their house, dubbed theTweehouse.
Matt Colgan, a friend from Ithaca College, describes Torrey as “a quiet guy, but… incredibly polite. He’d make a great dog.”
While many who know him now would agree, Torrey had a long journey to get here. Having battled depression and anxiety for most of his life, Torrey hadn’t planned to finish high school, let alone live past 18. He grew up in Lansing, a primarily white town not too far from Ithaca, with his two sisters, Jamaican mother, and Caucasian Michigan-born father. With even his cousins on his mom’s side seeing him and his sisters as “their white cousins,” Torrey had a hard time with his biracial identity growing up.
He’s also had a stutter since kindergarten and always been shy. Once middle school hit, things changed, he says – he became loud, obnoxious, and a “shitty bully.” Always feeling sad and scared, he avoided social activities. Stomachaches began to greet him the second he got to school. Being a good kid with good grades didn’t make up for his lack of interest and the monotonous work.
Sophomore year of high school, Torrey got a bad case of pneumonia, keeping him out of school for weeks. He was glad to be home, but eventually his parents urged him to go back, which frightened him. It’s common to interpret actions and memories negatively when suffering from anxiety and depression. When Torrey thought of his friends, whom he hadn’t talked to, he says he only remembered how mean he’d been and began hating himself. He tried returning a few times, but ultimately decided he couldn’t.
While his parents allowed him to drop out, his emotional state worsened. Without having any major obligations, he’d lie around all day listening to music, watching movies, or playing videogames. His parents tried to get him help, he says, but “I didn’t know what was going on with me and I didn’t trust the people I was talking to.”
Everything changed when his sister asked for a guitar for Christmas one year. Torrey taught himself to play the instrument during the day while home alone.
“Working on things felt like a really healthy outlet,” he says.
Having fallen in love with indie band Neutral Milk Hotel, Torrey taught himself how to play every song off In the Aeroplane Over the Sea. For his older sister, commuting to college meant waking up each morning to Torrey screaming the songs’ lyrics.
His video game habit also turned out to be far more helpful than he initially thought.
“Sammus [Enongo Lumumba-Kasongo, social justice and nerdcore rapper], Naps [Jason Calhoun, Torrey’s childhood best friend], and I all learned how to do multitrack recordings through MTV Music Generator,” he explains. Through using loops and layering tracks, the game taught him how to create songs. He also learned to play drums through Rock Band. “It’s not impressive to tell real musicians that,” Torrey says. “But it’s cool to be able to do that.”
In 2010, when he was 20, some friends he’d met on a message board about Elephant 6 – a music collective Torrey discovered through a music sampler on his family’s computer – invited to play Athen’s Pop Fest in Georgia. Performing in the “really supportive, safe environment” of someone’s backyard among friends, he felt comfortable and thought about hosting his own shows.
Most of the songs he’d written, and still writes, are about his battles with his mental health.
“Benjaminto is the sad essence that revolves around Benjamin Torrey, the mix between cute vocal melodies and witty slightly depressing lyrics,” says Colgan.
To Torrey, the things in life that scare him seem less scary when sung to pop music.
“I’ve always felt like after writing a song about like suicidal thoughts I’ve been having or [pushing friends away due to anxiety] – once I’m finished with it, I feel so much better,” Torrey says.
In 2010, Torrey also decided he was ready to go back to school. He started at Tompkins County Community College, where he found the professors to be encouraging and great resources. He also had the support of his first long-term girlfriend, which he’s still thankful for. After transferring to Ithaca College, Torrey quickly became friends with Tyler Coby, class of ’16, and Matt Colgan, class of ’17, who got Torrey involved in Ithaca Underground (IU). Before that, Torrey describes his anxiety as debilitating to the point where he couldn’t order food from a mall food court.
“I feel so much more invincible just knowing there’s so many cool people there [at IU],” he says. “If you’re not a dick, people will just love you; everyone is there to just be nice to you.”
But as much as Torrey talks about how IU helped him, he’s also helped them in a big way.
“While Benjamin continues to become busier in his own endeavors, he has made a lasting impact on our organization from our protocols, to our aesthetics,” says Bubba Crumrine, president of the IU Board. “And any time he is present in our meetings and events, there is always an extra level of passion, excitement, and inclusiveness added to the environment. He is one of the most loving and engaged people I know. His passion for music and the desire to help others learn, succeed, and be a part of something bigger than themselves is the embodiment of the Ithaca Underground mission.”
In 2015, a year after graduating, Torrey moved into an apartment with Krystal Cannon and immediately decided to start organizing shows. They started as if joking, only inviting a few friends; overtime the crowds became bigger and the bands more popular, turning their apartment into a more serious venue. They brought in bands Torrey had met through IU who typically play much larger venues, or as Torrey says, “bands that shouldn’t be in a tight space.”
As co-owner of a venue he lives in, Torrey explains how this both helps and sometimes worsens his anxiety. On one hand, he frequently jokes with his roommate, “We’re so anxious and lazy that it’s easier to have all our favorite artists play at our house.” On the other hand, he talks about the inability to escape from discomfort: “if you’re feeling panicky, you can’t really hide.”
Today, while not fully recovered from his demons, Torrey knows he’s getting there. The progress he’s made he credits to his family, music, and his community both at IU and Tweehouse. “[I] got better ‘cause I’m just lucky and had good resources, which is not the case for a lot of people.”
Ithaca Underground’s 2017 February Fundraising efforts kick-off today, with more fun ways to give!
Interested in giving a few dollars on a monthly basis, with to unlock perks like merch and unlimited show entry? Patreon is right for you!
Interested in donating a one-time gift as part of our February campaign to help keep shows all ages, low cost, and radically inclusive? GiveGab is right for you!
Do you have $5 that you’d like to give in return for Ithaca Underground: Vol. 3 digital compilation, featuring 30 new & unreleased tracks from Agnosia (featuring Sammus), Obody, Benjaminto, Anna Coogan, No-Comply, White Crime, Teencat, and more?
Donors and supporters can contribute or sign up to volunteer with IU year-round via our participate page as well, if that’s more your speed too.
Over the last decade, Ithaca Underground has grown from a hobby for DIY concerts to an ever-expanding, caring community of the talented, the inspired, and the weird. In addition to hundreds of live, all-ages music events, IU continues to provide learning and growth opportunities for volunteer artists, designers, photographers, videographers, grant writers, sound engineers, and marketeers.
Check out our 10th Anniversary celebration events at The Watershed, Cinemapolis, and The Haunt, February 16-18. More information here. Thank you all for your on-going support!
This April, CSMA’s 3rd Floor Auditorium will once again transform into an ethereal sound garden, through Naked Noise large ensemble of improvised ritual drone. Two 45 minute sets will be performed with a brief intermission. In this transcendental sound experience, unique to Ithaca, performers set up in a ring against the walls of the auditorium with the percussionists in the center, and the audience is encouraged to wander around the ring in-between. The sound will stretch and mutate as your location varies as live visuals glow across the installation overhead.
Featuring: Alyssa Duerksen (Violin), Andrew Dobos (Percussion), Beau Mahadev (Synth), Chris Demetriou (Percussion), Chris Knight (Synth), David Cabuenas (Violin/Thumb Piano), David Resig (Bassoon), Desmond Bratton (Double Bass), Emily DiAngelo (Oboe), Heather Fae (Voice/Synth), Josh Oxford (Synth), Mark Gross Voice/Synth, Maro Kariya (Synth), Michael Stark (Organ), Nicki Duval (Synth), Nils Hoover (Visuals), Penelope Lindsay (Synth), Sean Harvey (Percussion), Taylor Eddinger (Percussion) NN#8 is made possible in grant support from the Tompkins County Tourism Program, Community Arts Partnership of Tompknis County, and Community Foundation of Tompkins County.
Full details & tickets here. NN#8 is made possible in grant support from the Tompkins County Tourism Program, Community Arts Partnership of Tompknis County, and Community Foundation of Tompkins County.
Ithaca Underground celebrates ten years of nurturing a radically inclusive, safe space for music & art outside the mainstream.
Over the last decade, Ithaca Underground has grown from a hobby for DIY concerts to an ever-expanding, caring community of the talented, the inspired, and the weird.
In addition to hundreds of live, all-ages music events, IU continues to provide learning and growth opportunities for volunteer artists, designers, photographers, videographers, grant writers, sound engineers, and marketeers.
Our 10th Anniversary celebration kicks off, with your chance to meet the Ithaca Underground board in a relaxed atmosphere, to learn more about the volunteer opportunities and safe space that we provide to our local community. Thanks to The Watershed co-owner and long time IU-supporter Ashley Cake for the space to meet and mingle.
We continue our 10th Anniversary celebration with a visual retrospective of Ithaca Underground. Join us to look back through student documentaries, performance videos, photographs and stories from our panel to catch a glimpse of how we’ve grown into the second most active independent booking organization in Ithaca. $5 Admission.
We close our the weekend with our annual February fundraiser at the Haunt to fund another year worth of events, volunteer training, equipment, and supporting local musicians. Ithaca Beer will provide our Rolemodel IPA, exclusive to the event. A Beach Parade Spritzer, N/A mocktail will also be available just for the night. Get your tickets now.
Big thanks to our partners at McNeil Music of Ithaca, Ithaca Beer Co., Cinemapolis, & Ithaca Fantastik.
Crying (Run For Cover Records) return to Ithaca at Chant-Loft this Thursday with Spazzare, Benjaminto, What Nerve. Presale tickets available for $10 (no fee), $12 at the door.
“The indie rock trio Crying folds the bombast of mainstream ’80s rock into their sound, and the results feel like a grinning inversion of the hetero-masculinity that’s often baked into such fireworks.” – Pitchfork
“Fortunately, Crying have arrived to deliver us from our sorrows. What may have started as a fairly innocent chiptune project with the group’s 2014 double EP Get Olde / Second Wind has already evolved levels beyond, into a force that both throttles our current cultural obsessions while being daring enough to simply and bracingly have fun with them. Beyond the Fleeting Gales, Crying’s full-length debut, is a dramatic, life-affirming thrill ride that reinvents twee as a muscular, confident embodiment of youth, less the story of a sad kid on the bus than a trunk-rattling night out with all your friends. The trio of Elaiza Santos, Ryan Galloway, and Nick Corbo turbine a sumptuous bounty of gimmicky styles into a swirl of reckless abandon and enthusiasm, a mishmash of arena rock, 8-bit, emo, and prog that jettisons much of their cultural baggage in favor of making something both immediate and personal.” – Tiny Mix Tapes
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